Feels damn good, man. Damn good.

Wish it could be you.

God I was in way too deep.

I really miss having a gf honestly. Alot. And I know it’s not everything, I know it’s not the most important thing in the world, But I do. I miss having that person to just talk with about anything and everything all day. It doesn’t even have to make sense, or always be serious, or always be a joke, or it can even be super weird But it doesn’t matter cause I really insanely care about that person, and would anything for them. And no, it’s not the same thing as having a dude bestfriend, definitely better haha. It’s close, But gf wins. But yeah. Though I don’t think it’d ever get to the point Where I’d date someone just cause I kinda like them. I actually turned away a few opportunites recently, that I probably won’t get back, cause of that. I just don’t work that way… .not going to say im committed to you, unless I know before were in it that I actually will. And alot of people just jump into relationships just cause, or cause they think they’ll actually really care about the person or whatever it is. I strongly (not hate) dislike that point of view. Cause it’s so sugar coated and paper thin. It annoys me. I mean I guess how I see things didn’t work so Well for me last time. But I miss it regardless. Wish it wasn’t so “a dime a dozen”. But then it wouldnt be as special, right?

It’s ridiculous how much that song plays. And my family loves and refuses to change it whenever it comes on the radio unless I supply a legitimate reason But… I can’t tell them Why. So I just kinda let it play. Kinda just endure it.